Before the people, and our lord the King." And Lancelot ever promised, but remain'd, And still they met and met. Again she said, "O Lancelot, if thou love me get thee hence," And then they were agreed upon a night (When the good King should not be there) to meet And part forever. Passion-pale they met And greeted: hands in hands, and eye to eye, Low on the border of her couch they sat Stammering and staring; it was their last hour, A madness of farewells. And Modred brought His creatures to the basement of the tower For testimony; and crying with full voice, "Traitor, come out, ye are trapt at last," aroused Lancelot, who rushing outward lion-like Leapt on him, and hurl'd him headlong, and he fell Stunn'd, and his creatures took and bare him off And all was still: then she, "The end is come And I am shamed forever;" and he said, "Mine be the shame; mine was the sin; but rise, And fly to my strong castle overseas; There will I hide thee, till my life shall end, There hold thee with my life against the world." She answer'd, "Lancelot, wilt thou hold me so? Nay friend, for we have taken our farewells.
"Late, late, so late! and dark the night and chill! Late, late, so late! but we can enter still. Too late, too late! ye cannot enter now.
"No light had we: for that we do repent; And learning this, the bridegroom will relent. Too late, too late! ye cannot enter now.
"No light: so late! and dark and chill the night! O let us in, that we may find the light! Too late, too late! ye cannot enter now.
"Have we not heard the bridegroom is so sweet? O let us in, tho' late, to kiss his feet! No, no, too late! ye cannot enter now."
So sang the novice, while, full passionately, Her head upon her hands, remembering Her thought when first she came, wept the sad Queer. Then said the little novice prattling to her,
"O pray you, noble lady, weep no more; But let my words, the words of one so small, Who knowing nothing knows but to obey, And if I do not there is penance givenComfort your sorrows; for they do not flow
Would God, that thou couldst hide me from my- From evil done; right sure am I of that,
Mine is the shame, for I was wife, and thou Unwedded: yet rise now, and let us fly, For I will draw me into sanctuary,
And bide my doom." So Lancelot got her horse, Set her thereon, and mounted on his own, And then they rode to the divided way, There kiss'd, and parted weeping; for he past, Love-loyal to the least wish of the Queen, Back to his land; but she to Almesbury Fled all night long by glimmering waste and weald, And heard the Spirits of the waste and weald Moan as she fled, or thought she heard them moan; And in herself she moan'd, "Too late, too late!" Till in the cold wind that foreruns the morn, A blot in heaven, the Raven, flying high, Croak'd, and she thought, "He spies a field of death; For now the heathen of the Northern Sea, Lured by the crimes and frailties of the court, Begin to slay the folk, and spoil the land.”
And when she came to Almesbury she spake There to the nuns, and said, "Mine enemies Pursue me, but, O peaceful Sisterhood, Receive, and yield me sanctuary, nor ask Her name, to whom ye yield it, till her time To tell you:" and her beauty, grace, and power Wrought as a charm upon them, and they spared To ask it.
So the stately Queen abode For many a week, unknown, among the nuns; Nor with them mix'd, nor told her name, nor sought, Wrapt in her grief, for honsel or for shrift, But communed only with the little maid, Who pleased her with a babbling heedlessness Which often lured her from herself; but now, This night, a rumor wildly blown about Came, that Sir Modred had usurp'd the realm, And leagued him with the heathen, while the King Was waging war on Lancelot: then she thought, "With what a hate the people and the King Must hate me," and bow'd down upon her hands Silent, until the little maid, who brook'd No silence, brake it, uttering "Late! so late! What hour, I wonder, now?" and when she drew No answer, by and by began to hum
An air the nuns had taught her; "Late so late!" Which when she heard, the Queen look'd up, and said,
"O maiden, if indeed you list to sing, Sing, and unbind my heart that I may weep." Whereat full willingly sang the little maid.
Who see your tender grace and stateliness. But weigh your sorrows with our lord the King's, And weighing find them less; for gone is he To wage grim war against Sir Lancelot there, Round that strong castle where he holds the Queen; And Modred whom he left in charge of all, The traitor-Ah sweet lady, the King's grief For his own self, and his own Queen, and realm, Must needs be thrice as great as any of ours. For me, I thank the saints I am not great. For if there ever come a grief to me
I cry my cry in silence, and have done: - None knows it, and my tears have brought me good. But even were the griefs of little ones
As great as those of great ones, yet this grief Is added to the griefs the great must bear, That howsoever much they may desire Silence, they cannot weep behind a cloud: As even here they talk at Almesbury About the good King and his wicked Queen, And were I such a King with such a Queen, Well might I wish to veil her wickedness, But were I such a King, it could not be."
Then to her own sad heart mutter'd the Queen, "Will the child kill me with her innocent talk?" But openly she answer'd, "Must not I, If this false traitor have displaced his lord, Grieve with the common grief of all the realm ?"
"Yea," said the maid, "this is all woman's grief, That she is woman, whose disloyal life Hath wrought confusion in the Table Round Which good King Arthur founded, years ago, With signs and miracles and wonders, there At Camelot, ere the coming of the Queen."
Then thought the Queen within herself again, "Will the child kill me with her foolish prate ?” But openly she spake and said to her, "O little maid, shut in by nunnery walls, What canst thou know of Kings and Tables Round Or what of signs and wonders, but the signs And simple miracles of thy nunnery?"
To whom the little novice garrulously: "Yea, but I know: the land was full of signs And wonders ere the coming of the Queen. So said my father, and himself was knight Of the great Table-at the founding of it: And rode thereto from Lyonnesse, and he said That as he rode, an hour or may be twain
And still at evenings on before his horse The flickering fairy-circle wheel'd and broke Flying, and link'd again, and wheel'd aud broke Flying, for all the land was full of life. And when at last he came to Camelot,
After the sunset, down the coast he heard Strange music, and he paused and turning-there, All down the lonely coast of Lyonnesse, Each with a beacon-star upon his head, And with a wild sea-light about his feet, He saw them-headland after headland flame Far on into the rich heart of the west : And in the light the white mermaiden swam, And strong man-breasted things stood from the sea, As never man had dream'd; for every knight
And sent a deep sea-voice thro' all the land, To which the little elves of chasm and cleft Made answer, sounding like a distant horn. So said my father-yea and furthermore, Next morning, while he past the dim-lit woods, Himself beheld three spirits mad with joy Come dashing down on a tall wayside flower, That shook beneath them, as the thistle shakes When three gray linnets wrangle for the seed:
A wreath of airy dancers hand-in-hand Swung round the lighted lantern of the hall; And in the hall itself was such a feast
Had whatsoever meat he long'd for served By hands unseen; and even as he said Down in the cellars merry bloated things Shoulder'd the spigot, straddling on the butts While the wine ran: so glad were spirits and men Before the coming of the sinful Queen."
Then spake the Queen, and somewhat bitterly, "Were they so glad? ill prophets were they all,
Spirits and men: could none of them foresee, Not even thy wise father with his signs And wonders, what has fall'n upon the realm ?"
To whom the novice garrulously again: "Yea, one, a bard: of whom my father said, Full many a noble war-song had he sung, Ev'n in the presence of an enemy's fleet, Between the steep cliff and the coming wave, And many a mystic lay of life and death Had chanted on the smoky mountain-tops, When round him hent the spirits of the hills With all their dewy hair blown back like flame: So said my father-and that night the bard Sang Arthur's glorious wars, and sang the King As wellnigh more than man, and rail'd at those Who call'd him the false son of Gorlois :
For there was no man knew from whence he came; But after tempest, when the long wave broke All down the thundering shores of Bude and Bos, There came a day as still as heaven, and then They found a naked child upon the sands Of dark Dundagil by the Cornish sea; And that was Arthur; and they foster'd him Till he by miracle was approven king: And that his grave should be a mystery
From all men, like his birth; and could he find A woman in her womanhood as great As he was in his manhood, then, he sang, The twain together well might change the world. But even in the middle of his song
He falter'd, and his hand fell from the harp, And pale he turn'd and reel'd, and would have fall'n, But that they stay'd him up; nor would he tell His vision; but what doubt that he foresaw This evil work of Lancelot and the Queen ?"
If ever Lancelot, that most noble knight, Were for one hour less noble than himself, Pray for him that he scape the doom of fire, And weep for her who drew him to his doom."
"Yea," said the little novice, "I pray for both; But I should all as soon believe that his, Sir Lancelot's, were as noble as the King's, As I could think, sweet lady, yours would be Such as they are, were you the sinful Queen."
So she, like many another babbler, hurt
Whom she would soothe, and harm'd where she would heal;
For here a sudden flush of wrathful heat Fired all the pale face of the Queen, who cried, "Such as thou art be never maiden more Forever! thou their tool, set on to plague And play upon, and harry me, petty spy And traitress." When that storm of anger brake From Guinevere, aghast the maiden rose, White as her veil, and stood before the Queen As tremulously as foam upon the beach Stands in a wind, ready to break and fly, And when the Queen had added "Get thee hence!" Fled frighted. Then that other left alone Sigh'd, and began to gather heart again, Saying in herself, "The simple, fearful child Meant nothing, but my own too-fearful guilt Simpler than any child, betrays itself: But help me, heaven, for surely I repent. For what is true repentance but in thought- Not e'en in inmost thought to think again The sins that made the past so pleasant to us. And I have sworn never to see him more, To see him more."
Then thought the Queen, "Lo! they have set her Her memory from old habit of the mind
Our simple-seeming Abbess and her nuns,
To play upon me," and bow'd her head nor spake. Whereat the novice crying, with clasp'd hands, Shame on her own garrulity garrulously,
Went slipping back upon the golden days In which she saw him first, when Lancelot came, Reputed the best knight and goodliest man, Ambassador, to lead her to his lord
Arthur, and led her forth, and far ahead
Said the good nuns would check her gadding tongue Of his and her retinue moving, they,
Full often, "And, sweet lady, if I seem To vex an ear too sad to listen to me, Unmannerly, with prattling and the tales Which my good father told me, check me too: Nor let me shame my father's memory, one Of noblest manners, tho' himself would say Sir Lancelot had the noblest; and he died, Kill'd in a tilt, come next, five summers back, And left me; but of others who remain, And of the two first-famed for courtesy- And pray you check me if I ask amiss-
But pray you, which had noblest, while you moved Among them, Lancelot or our Lord the King?"
Rapt in sweet thought, or lively, all on love And sport and tilts and pleasure, (for the time Was maytime, and as yet no sin was dream'd,) Rode under groves that look'd a paradise Of blossom, over sheets of hyacinth That seem'd the heavens upbreaking thro' the earth. And on from hill to hill, and every day Beheld at noon in some delicious dale The silk pavilions of King Arthur raised For brief repast or afternoon repose By courtiers gone before; and on again, Till yet once more ere set of sun they saw The dragon of the great Pendragonship, That crown'd the state pavilion of the King,
Then the pale Queen look'd up and answered her, Blaze by the rushing brook or silent well.
"Sir Lancelot, as became a noble knight,
Was gracious to all ladies, and the same In open battle or the tilting-field Forbore his own advantage, and the King In open battle or the tilting-field Forbore his own advantage, and these two Were the most nobly-manner'd men of all; For manners are not idle, but the fruit Of loyal nature, and of noble mind."
"Yea," said the maid, "be manners such fair fruit? Then Lancelot's needs must be a thousandfold Less noble, being, as all rumor runs, The most disloyal friend in all the world."
To which a mournful answer made the Queen, "O closed about by narrowing nunnery-walls, What knowest thon of the world, and all its lights And shadows, all the wealth and all the woe?
But when the Queen immersed in such a trance, And moving thro' the past unconsciously, Came to that point, when first she saw the King Ride toward her from the city, sigh'd to find Her journey done, glanced at him, thought him cold High, self-contain'd, and passionless, not like him, "Not like my Lancelot "-while she brooded thus And grew half-guilty in her thoughts again, There rode an armed warrior to the doors. A murmuring whisper thro' the nunnery ran, Then on a sudden a cry, "The King." She sat Stiff-stricken, listening: but when armed feet Thro' the long gallery from the outer doors Rang coming, prone from off her seat she fell, And grovell'd with her face against the floor: There with her milkwhite arms and shadowy ha She made her face a darkness from the King: And in the darkness heard his armed feet
Pause by her; then came silence, then a voice, Monotonous and hollow like a Ghost's
Not greatly care to lose; but rather think How sad it were for Arthur, should he live,
Denouncing judgment, but tho' changed the King's. To sit once more within his lonely hall,
"Liest thou here so low, the child of one I honor'd, happy, dead before thy shame? Well is it that no child is born of thee.
The children born of thee are sword and fire, Red ruin, and the breaking up of laws, The craft of kindred and the Godless hosts Of heathen swarming o'er the Northern Sea. Whom I, while yet Sir Lancelot, my right arm, The mightiest of my knights abode with me, Have everywhere about this land of Christ In twelve great battles ruining overthrown.
And knowest thou now from whence I coine-from him,
From waging bitter war with him: and he, That did not shun to smite me in worse way, Had yet that grace of courtesy in him left, He spared to lift his hand against the King
And miss the wonted number of my knights, And miss to hear high talk of noble deeds As in the golden days before thy sin. For which of us, who might be left, could speak Of the pure heart, nor seem to glance at thee? And in thy bowers of Camelot or of Usk Thy shadow still would glide from room to room, And I should evermore be vext with thee
In hanging robe or vacant ornament, Or ghostly footfall echoing on the stair. For think not, tho' thou wouldst not love thy lord, Thy lord has wholly lost his love for thee. I am not made of so slight elements.
Yet must I leave thee, woman, to thy shame. I hold that man the worst of public foes Who either for his own or children's sake, To save his blood from scandal, lets the wife Whom he knows false, abide and rule the house:
Who made him knight: but many a knight was For being thro' his cowardice allow'd
And many more, and all his kith and kin Clave to him, and abode in his own land. And many more when Modred raised revolt, Forgetful of their troth and fealty, clave To Modred, and a remnant stays with me. And of this remnant will I leave a part, True men who love me still, for whom I live, To guard thee in the wild hour coming on, Lest but a hair of this low head be harm'd. Fear not thou shalt be guarded till my death. Howbeit I know, if ancient prophecies Have err'd not, that I march to meet my doom. Thou hast not made my life so sweet to me, That I the King should greatly care to live; For thou hast spoilt the purpose of my life. Bear with me for the last time while I show, Ev'n for thy sake, the sin which thou hast sinn'd. For when the Roman left us, and their law Relax'd its hold upon us, and the ways Were fill'd with rapine, here and there a deed Of prowess done redress'd a random wrong. But I was first of all the kings who drew The knighthood-errant of this realm and alı The realms together under me, their Head, In that fair order of my Table Round, A glorious company, the flower of men, To serve as model for the mighty world, And be the fair beginning of a time.
I made them lay their hands in mine and swear To reverence the King, as if he were
Their conscience, and their conscience as their King, To break the heathen and uphold the Christ, To ride abroad redressing human wrongs, To speak no slander, no, nor listen to it, To lead sweet lives in purest chastity, To love one maiden only, cleave to her, And worship her by years of noble deeds, Until they won her; for indeed I knew Of no more subtle master under heaven Than is the maiden passion for a maid, Not only to keep down the base in man, But teach high thought, and amiable words And courtliness, and the desire of fame, And love of truth, and all that makes a man. And all this throve until I wedded thee! Believing "lo mine helpmate, one to feel My purpose and rejoicing in my joy." Then came thy shameful sin with Lancelot; Then came the sin of Tristram and Isolt; Then others, following these my mightiest knights, And drawing foul ensample from fair names, Sinn'd also, till the loathsome opposite Of all my heart had destined did obtain, And all thro' thee! so that this life of mine
I guard as God's high gift from scathe and wrong,
Her station, taken everywhere for pure, She like a new disease, unknown to men, Creeps, no precaution used, among the crowd, Makes wicked lightnings of her eyes, and saps The fealty of our friends, and stirs the pulse With devil's leaps, and poisons half the young. Worst of the worst were that man he that reigns! Better the King's waste hearth and aching heart Than thou reseated in thy place of light, The mockery of my people, and their bane."
He paused, and in the panse she crept an inch Nearer, and laid her hands about his feet. Far off a solitary trumpet blew. Then waiting by the doors the war-horse neigh'd As at a friend's voice, and he spake again:
"Yet think not that I come to urge thy crimes,
I did not come to curse thee, Guinevere,
I, whose vast pity almost makes me die To see thee, laying there thy golden head, My pride in happier summers, at my feet.
The wrath which forced my thoughts on that fierce law,
The doom of treason and the flaming death (When first I learnt thee hidden here), is past. The pang-which while I weigh'd thy heart with one Too wholly true to dream untruth in thee, Made my tears burn-is also past, in part. And all is past, the sin is sinn'd, and I, Lo! I forgive thee, as Eternal God But how to take last leave of all I loved? Forgives: do thou for thine own soul the rest. O golden hair, with which I used to play Not knowing! O imperial-moulded form, And beauty such as never woman wore, Until it came a kingdom's curse with thee- I cannot touch thy lips, they are not mine,
But Lancelot's: nay, they never were the King's.
I cannot take thy band; that too is flesh,
And in the flesh thou hast sinn'd; and mine own flesh,
Here looking down on thine polluted, cries 'I loathe thee;' yet not less, O Guinevere, For I was ever virgin save for thee, My love thro' flesh hath wrought into my life So far, that my doom is, I love thee still. Let no man dream but that I love thee still. Perchance, and so thou purify thy soul, And so thou lean on our fair father Christ, We two may meet before high God, and thou Hereafter in that world where all are pure Wilt spring to me, and claim me thine, and know I am thine husband-not a smaller soul, Nor Lancelot, nor another. Leave me that, I charge thee, my last hope. Now must I hence.
Thro' the thick night I hear the trumpet blow: They summon me their King to lead mine hosts Far down to that great battle in the west, Where I must strike against my sister's son,
I thought I could not breathe in that fine air That pure severity of perfect light-
I wanted warmth and color which I found In Lancelot-now I see thee what thou art,
Leagued with the lords of the White Horse and Thou art the highest and most human too,
Once mine, and strike him dead, and meet myself Death, or I know not what mysterious doom. And thou remaining here wilt learn the event; But hither shall I never come again, Never lie by thy side, see thee no more, Farewell!"
And while she grovell'd at his feet, She felt the King's breath wander o'er her neck, And, in the darkness o'er her fallen head, Perceived the waving of his hands that blest.
Then, listening till those armed steps were gone, Rose the pale Queen, and in her anguish found The casement: "Peradventure," so she thought, "If I might see his face, and not be seen." And lo, he sat on horseback at the door! And near him the sad nuns with each a light Stood, and he gave them charge about the Queen, To guard and foster her forevermore.
And while he spake to these his helm was lower'd, To which for crest the golden dragon clung Of Britain; so she did not see the face, Which then was as an angel's, but she saw, Wet with the mists and smitten by the lights, The Dragon of the great Pendragonship Blaze, making all the night a steam of fire. And even then he turn'd; and more and more The moony vapor rolling round the King, Who seem'd the phantom of a Giant in it, Enwound him fold by fold, and made him gray And grayer, till himself became as mist Before her, moving ghostlike to his doom.
Then she stretch'd out her arms and cried aloud, "O Arthur!" there her voice brake suddenly, Then-as a stream that spouting from a cliff Fails in mid-air, but gathering at the base Re-makes itself, and flashes down the vale- Went on in passionate utterance.
Not Lancelot, nor another. Is there none Will tell the King I love him tho' so late? Now-ere he goes to the great Battle? none: Myself must tell him in that purer life, But now it were too daring. Ah my God, What might I not have made of thy fair world, Had I but loved thy highest creature here? It was my duty to have loved the highest: It surely was my profit had I known: It would have been my pleasure had I seen. We needs must love the highest when we see it, Not Lancelot, nor another."
Here her hand Grasp'd, made her veil her eyes: she look'd and saw The novice, weeping, suppliant, and said to her, "Yea, little maid, for am I not forgiven?" Then glancing up beheld the holy nuns
All round her, weeping; and her heart was loosed Within her, and she wept with these and said:
"Ye know me then, that wicked one, who broke The vast design and purpose of the King. O shut me round with narrowing nunnery-walls, Meek maidens, from the voices crying 'Shame.' I must not scorn myself: he loves me still. Let no one dream but that he loves me still. So let me, if you do not shudder at me Nor shun to call me sister, dwell with you: Wear black and white, and be a nun like you, Fast with your fasts, not feasting with your feasts, Grieve with your griefs, not grieving at your joys, But not rejoicing; mingle with your rites; Pray and be prayed for; lie before your shrines; Do each low office of your holy house; Walk your dim cloister, and distribute dole To poor sick people, richer in his eyes Who ransom'd us, and haler too than I;
And treat their loathsome hurts and heal mine own; And so wear out in almsdeed and in prayer The sombre close of that voluptuous day,
"Gone-my lord! Which wrought the ruin of my lord the King."
Gone thro' my sin to slay and to be slain ! And he forgave me, and I could not speak. Farewell? I should have answer'd his farewell. His mercy choked me. Gone, my lord the King, My own true lord! how dare I call him mine? The shadow of another cleaves to me, And makes me one pollution: he, the King, Call'd me polluted: shall I kill myself? What help in that? I cannot kill my sin, If soul be soul; nor can I kill my shame; No, nor by living can I live it down.
The days will grow to weeks, the weeks to months, The months will add themselves and make the years, The years will roll into the centuries, And mine will ever be a name of scorn. I must not dwell on that defeat of fame.
Let the world be: that is but of the world. What else? what hope? I think there was a hope, Except he mock'd me when he spake of hope; His hope he call'd it; but he never mocks, For mockery is the fume of little hearts. And blessed be the King, who hath forgiven My wickedness to him, and left me hope That in mine own heart I can live down sin And be his mate hereafter in the heavens Before high God. Ah great and gentle lord, Who wast, as is the conscience of a saint Among his warring senses, to thy knights- To whom my false voluptuous pride, that took Full easily all impressions from below, Would not look up, or half-despised the height To which I would not or I could not climb-
She said they took her to themselves; and she Still hoping, fearing "Is it yet too late?" Dwelt with them, till in time their Abbess died. Then she, for her good deeds and her pure life, And for the power of ministration in her, And likewise for the high rank she had borne, Was chosen Abbess, there, an Abbess lived For three brief years, and there, an Abbess, past To where beyond these voices there is peace.
THE PASSING OF ARTHUR.
THAT story which the bold Sir Bedivere First made and latest left of all the knights, Told, when the man was no more than a voice In the white winter of his age, to those With whom he dwelt, new faces, other minds.
Before that last weird battle in the West There came on Arthur sleeping, Gawain kill'd In Lancelot's war, the ghost of Gawain blown Along a wandering wind, and past his ear Went shrilling, "Hollow, hollow all delight! Hail, king! to-morrow thou shalt pass away. Farewell! there is an isle of rest for thee. And I am blown along a wandering wind, And hollow, hollow, hollow all delight."
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